Really does anyone have good memories? Okay, a few of you do. But, for those of you who d r e a d e d gym class something fierce and are getting a knot in your stomach just remembering and are thinking you just “had womanly troubles” and can’t go to class, we would be friends.
You know it never mattered what I had in common with Susie the other 7 periods of the day, if during gym class Susie and I were always picked last, and were the last to finish “running” the mile we were friends. If your gym teacher called you a “statue” and told you to move, and someone else was standing there, the two of you had an unbreakable bond.
If you know what I am talking about, I don’t think any more needs to be said. If you don’t, I don’t think any amount of words can explain it.
The day we ran the mile in gym class was one of the most dreaded days of the year. For some, it may have been giving a speech. For me, it was being told to “just try and run” please.
When Heather and I decided to speed walk instead of running, we felt so rebellious.
I am not an athlete. I am not athletic. I can’t run.
I believed this for so long I never even considered them beliefs. Just fact.
Watching Croi (and many friends) become runners I actually started to question myself. I have always thought, “I am not a runner” but the thing is I have never tried.
A running group/coach started a couch to 5K type program. And I signed up.
I said, “I’ll try.” Who knows–maybe I’m a runner? (I can’t even type that with a straight face.) But, I do know how beneficial physical activity is for my brain. And Lord knows how crappy I’ve been about getting some. And I keep hearing, “running is 90% mental.” I don’t know if that makes me feel better or worse. I don’t know if I have the mental strength for that.
I’ve already said that if at the end of 10 weeks I hate it just as much as I do now, I NEVER have to do it again. Then I’ll know for sure.
But, I also know there is not a single moment in my life where I would have considered doing this.
Never in my life have I even thought that committing to a 10 week training program with a 5K run at the end was even possible for me. And today I do. So, for that I am grateful.
I am grateful that I am doing more than I ever thought possible.
Ask me how I really feel tomorrow.